Seriously, I can't count how many times these thoughts have crossed my mind. I don't want to work any more!!!! Yes.. you read it right... I do not want to work any more. I want all the fun in life.. The fun I missed so far..
When I was child, I wanted to grow up as soon as possible so that I can earn, be independent and have lots and lots of money, support those who want to study or pursue what they like. Unfortunately, with that goal in my mind, I forgot to live a life!!! Now, I have got all that I had wished for. I have a job, I have money and if not everything, I have capacity to help a few who are in need of financial. But, all of a sudden, path of life seems to have reached dead-end. There is nothing that interests me.
Now.. everything seems to have changed. Singing doesn't make me happy. Talking to people doesn't make me happy either. I tried continuing learning music. But, I have lost that zeal in life. I cannot set goals for myself and work on the goals set with the same enthusiasm. I wonder how I used to wake up early in the morning and attend music classes when it was still dark outside.
Thought that learning something new might make me feel fresh. It didn’t work out the way I had expected. I tried learning Piano. After a few weeks of class, with a teacher not supporting any experiments, I got bored. That is the end of it. Anything that repeats, bores me. Is it me or someone else who used to love the Language classes, music classes and the Veda classes!!! I wonder..
In those early days, I never had money to buy a cassette. I could hear the songs played on Radio and learn by heart. Now, I have bought loads of CD’s and DVD’s. But I’m unable to learn even a song in last few months.
Do you feel the same way? How do you deal with this laziness?
Life is boring.. boring and boring.
